Yomigaere - 28 march, 2015

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Minecraft Username Yomigaere

Date of Ban 28 march, 2015
Server Survival/Creative
Banned by Liam

Reason for Ban Using illegitimate items in survival, intentionally lagging FTB

Reason to be Unbanned there is not really a specific reason for why i ‘should’ be unbanned.
I’ve missed this community a lot over the last half year and i saw my town slowly getting turned into a poop hole.
I want to fix my town and be able to communicate and have fun with my friends from this community.

In this half year i have been working as an admin on a ftb infinity server i worked with a lot of mature (or just plain old) people there and i think i have upped my game.

In this past half year my therapies have been going better and there is a lot of progress but sadly my loneliness keeps having a strong hold on my will and confidence.

By applying for the ban appeal I am using my last option to obtain a bit of a better feeling about myself and my situation.

I will answer all questions truthfully as i always have about what now or what happened in the past since i noticed some people have very weird stories in their head.
I am here not picking on people one by one. I want to be better understood so i can also show why i do things.

[ Ban History ] 1 other ban appeals found
9th of April, 2015

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I had no hand in the banning, nor wanted you gone permanently, although I’ll give an unbiased response for the sake of making some actual progression of the thread and perhaps towards getting you unbanned or answers to any questions you may hold as well.

You hid away items under spawn for your personal gain, for what purpose?

The tree in FTB, I get, was just a moment of being stupid, so not going to really focus on that one.

People have said in the past that you have a way of rubbing off on them wrong, being sorta brash and harsh, or being awkward/unpleasant to talk with on the server at times. I myself have no witnessed it, but enough people have said it in private to make it troublesome. Do you believe this to be different now?

If unbanned, would you perhaps be willing to work with just straight Member, and given a trial period at least before being considered for even Trusted in the future?

All that aside, I see actual effort in your appeal, you’re former staff, and I would like to see you back, even if it is not my decision to make.

that stash near/ under spawn was there since the start knowingly by ukoctopus ( he made the bedrock wall)
it’s orignal purpose was for a ‘Pirate event’ where there would have been a pirateship invading spawn that’s why it had huge amount of spruce logs and 1 stack of diamond blocks at a prize when you conquered the pirateship. This idea got forgotten and i got bored a lot. then I showed the place to a staff person at that time and he/she teleported in and i followed ( i was trusted atm) and i took the a chance for the thrill of the idea. i stored it all in my enderchest and never used it and when staff asked i explained and gave it back right away.

The thing about FTB server intentionally lagging … I found out that was wayyy mis understood.

I had a few firefly jars which i gave to the people who lived there and i saw i placed a bit too many and i took a few back (that got understood as breaking blocks for some reason) then i got killed and a bit annoyed and placed a MEGA rubber tree sapling and that tree is harmless the tree that ukoctopus shows on my ban appeal 2 weeks after it happened that one was a SACRED rubber tree sapling. which actually destroys server. Mega rubber tree saplings are never harmfull to servers. I am admin at a different server and it never ever gets in the way of stuff and there are even complete farms for it. I asked the owned how it works and what it does. I am still learning from this man he is my proud mentor in ldrship. this is why i thought the warning was for the sacred one not the mega one. If you do not believe about those 2 saplings Google it.

I have my honesty which can sometimes cause issues. I hate it when people act fake and then they do i get annoyed and i should take a time out. I take critism way too hard and i am still learning not to pay too much attention to it.
I am trying too hard to be liked because of my past that i get scared when someone shows signs of not liking me and then i panic that’s why i should never ever be allowed staff on this server since it’s community is too big for me but i believe i can still be a normal member/donator/trusted what ever it will be i don’t mind i just want back. for all i care it is a trial. it is all i have left

I’ve personally always wanted Yomi back. She may have had rough spots, but I feel that she is a part of our community. You have my vote, although I suppose ultimately Its going to be up to Liam, since he banned her?

I just don’t agree with that argument. Are you saying you’d vote to unban Anth if he were to appeal? He’s been a part of the community and was staff, like Yomi. Yomi’s had many more chances than Anth has, so I don’t see the consistency in your argument. There’s also the fact that it’s not setting a good example for other bans in the future. “If we’ve known you for a while, we’ll give you a second or third shot.” We can’t be swayed by community or play time; they have to do the time for committing the crime.

To Yomi: It’s nothing personal, I respect your claims and I’m proud that you could bring up your issues with us in the past, that takes bravery, but, when it comes down to the line, I can’t vote for your unbanning.

There is a difference between outright attacking and denouncing the server, as Anth as done, and having a series of mistakes brought on by personal issues, as Yomi has had.

This. There’s a stark difference between passive and active, Anth fucked up in the active way - i.e. griefing and all that, Yomi’s just fucked up in a passive way. I think personal issues should have some kind of leeway - you wouldn’t expect someone with a broken leg to play rugby just as well as someone in perfect health.

I know I’ve said this lots, but I still like Yomi… If not on the main server, perhaps maybe back on FTB? It’s been kinda dead lately and having her there often may spark life into it again. I know I like to play with others on and boy is she always on!

Even if she messes up there, it’s not like there is much to mess up. I think it’s been off a while.

Yeah it was in the FTB Server, she made a redwood tree by me and @Godsjedi12315 's base on purpose after being warned which made the server completely crash.

Im over that already I think she deserves another chance to be honest.

You know guys. I’ve been here for about 2-2,5 years before i got banned.
I’ve been here long and worked hard on big cities to up the way things where build on this server
I wanted to help myself and other people into having ideas and then creating them pushing them through and then make em shine. I’ve always dedicated myself to this server because it was the only place where i’d feel fun safe and together with people, like the late evenings playing on minecraft, teamspeak, Cards against humanity and many more. I’ve poured my soul in this place and ever since i got banned i went down down down. I am at the moment at the point where i have no social interactions anymore except my parents who every ask me to be perfect and to not show how bad it goes to others. to hide my marks on my arm because it can disgust people or make them see me bad. there is nothing. i don’t enjoy gaming anymore. I don’t watch anime anymore, i don’t create and worse i can’t create. I’ve come at a complete stop in my life and can’t come back up.

everytime something happened with me against any of you i kept banging my head on the wall for how stupid it is How i might be seen as someone angry or unwanting of some people. What mostly is happening is that i always accept things and go out of my way to make another happy ( it might have been unnoticeable but i over think everything) till this bucket overflows and then i get strong impulse and anger panic and i don’t know what i am doing or why.

so now and then someone of you contacts me and wonders how it is going. I am so happy at that moment that someone would even think about me. I always thought that when i dissapear off this world things would go normal and everyone would say good riddance because they’d misunderstand me or just plain hate me but always hide it to make a fake mask of ‘yeah we’re best buds’. but i was so happy. There even came a plan on how to get me back in july but i never did it because i knew it would not work and it was against the rules and i do not cheat my way in like some cheap person. Even a fake account was made named Fitzas which i have sorrowfully used 2 short times to see how the server has changed and how people remember me. I saw a pain in my heart break it open to see something i spend months on making got destroyed so easily because (what i thought) it was mine.

I’ve missed everyone so much. you guys where the only people i could talk with either that be in dutch english german or any other language there was always a way. and if someone had trouble most people would help each other and that is why i loved this community. I hate myself and every night i remember all the mistakes i have ever made from saying 1 word wrong and getting hated by people for that to huge mistakes that cause me to still get panic every time i think of it.
I’ve lost 6 years of my life due to this weird Perfection way i was raised and still i am unable to live on my own or even do/finish a study. last 2 years i have been unable to do a study and to even work. I’m stuck in the dutch healthcare that is crumbling around me and crossing away all forms of therapy they say wthat would have been perfect for me as if i’m not granted any chance of hope or luck or even help.

I’m sorry for what i did I’m sorry for who i am i am trying soo hard to change this stupid dumb thought but it’s not working. I want to redeem myself towards you guys who i’ve spend the best 2 years in my life with and towards myself because i cannot go on without getting any form of confidence or happiness. I am not threatening you guys I’m just so sad that this has all happened and that i may have let people feel unwanted. I’m sorry also for those who always where happy around me and had fun with me that i cannot become a better person.

I’m sorry

No this cannot simply happen YOU should not judge her because her personal issues , infact you all have to shame yourself and yes this is a risky post but … i am angry right now what you all did to yomi that i insist my account gets banned and yomi back than staying on and pretend that my nose bleeds, after all yomi did much work for this community not always as mod,opp,staff but as friend and friendship must not and cannot die! Yomi if u want to talk just pm me and you get my number or skype its your decision wich one you want because this is what friends do stand up for eachother!

they never did anything to me. I did most myself out of impulses from insecurity
No one did anything
I’m not here to get people hated or cause disputes i just want back to this old place that was a safe haven

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chris… nose bleeds are overall know on the internet to happen after getting aroused by something … ( blame japan)

It’s very late for me and i’ll be going off so i won’t able to reply to any questions till tomorrow evening.

Yomi you should know what it means its basic school stuff it meaned to say “i do not pretend that nothing have happened”

it’s basic dutch ? not english? http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=nosebleed

i think only us 2 will understand it

Omg i forgot the gap between language education of english schools and the schools in the Netherlands

Do not post in ban appeals unless you are directly affected.

Well technicaly im affected by this , yomi is my longest friend in this server , so I stand up for here and my personal issue is when you offend my friends you getting offending me , but the worse part is your took someone with a (an person with a social issue) away from her safe haven, this can lead sometimes to suicide because she is losing sociolization and yes you can bann me for this but guess what if yomi still gets banned I wont simply care , in matter of all I only give about yomi’s health

Dasschris, you were not involved with yomi’s ban. We are not asking for character statements. This thread is for Yomi to make her case, and for the dispute of facts. Do not continue.